| What have I gotten myself into?
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| Well, I have concluded that I do not need to blog anymore. I have a journal that I write in now. Yes, write with a pen and a notebook. The only thing I'm here to say is, I'm dumb. No, don't think I'm just saying it like how everyone else says they are. I'm not even joking. I've tried in school, I seriously do. I received a D on my summary on Plato's "The Allegory of the Cave." I thought I did well. I tried to do my best, I gave a good example. I went over the summary and thought I did a good job describing it in my own words. But the papers came back and I saw a big fat D on it. And then I realized, I am probably dumb. Two summers ago, I took Intermediate Algebra, and do you know how hard I had to try just to pass the class with only a B? JUST A B! Come on, it isn't even Calculus! I had to spend so much time doing the homework, catching up, listening in class, taking notes, having my friends tutor me and all I get is a B! If you're telling me I'm not dumb, give me a damn good reason. Next time I tell someone I'm dumb, don't think I'm just saying it. I'm telling the truth. I'm not trying to fish for compliments, trying to get you to tell me I'm not. I know I'm not intelligent. I've been trying to so hard to read books lately that I don't even want to anymore. I didn't even gain any knowledge on anything by reading. When people look at me and see my grades or if I tell them where I go to school, I know they judge me. When people ask me simple questions to school work and I can't answer, I know what they think of me. I mean, even a 5th grader is smarter than I am. I don't even know how to explain their homework to them. I'm unworthy of tutoring kids. I'm happy I quit. I can't be humiliated any longer. I feel like such a failure. The only thing I honestly think I'm good at is drawing. But what can that do for me? I won't ever be able to find a decent paying job.
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